Ok... Ok.... Meg's juicy post? Sure.

I got a request from Ben (HA I said your name! :P ) to elaborate more on everything from this past semester and to write more. I won't use names or anything, because I'm sure the people involved won't want me telling people (so don't worry!). So here I go!

After returning home from Japan I only had one week before my classes began. But instead of relaxing and getting over jet-lag or reverse culture shock, I had to move into my new apartment and get ready for the semester. So in a sense, I didn't really ease myself back into normal American life and culture, I was violently thrown in... so that in itself was hard to adjust to.

Add in the fact that after coming back, I got sort of lost again as to what I wanted to do after graduation. I knew I wanted to go into graduate school and generally knew what I wanted to study, but hadn't a clue as to HOW to go about studying it (gays in Asia isn't exactly a widely studied issue). You know how frustrating to get lost while already on a path? It's silly.

And here is the major issue that kicked my ass into pathetic-town: I fell in love with someone who doesn't love me back. I know what you're thinking, "Meg, that happens to everyone? Why are you so whiny?". Well, shut up. :P Because this situation is a little different from most others. I won't go into the details now, but... yeah. Falling for someone who doesn't love you have really hurts.

So with all of that compiled together, I hit rock bottom and just lost all motivation and drive to do anything. I stopped caring about everything. But recently i've been getting better. My friends are here for me and always listen to me and give advice, and my family is always there to tell me to stop being stupid and pick myself up haha (Thanks Bridget). The person I fell in love with and I don't really see or interact with each other that much anymore... they have been really busy with their new person and doesn't really have the time to go out anymore. Maybe it's for the best though, right? I want to move on and forget everything that happened. I'm better off :)

And that is that. I will save my Army enlistment post for later... this post is long enough! Ah!

So yeah, thanks for everyone who has supported me throughout all of this despite my silly stubborness and stupidity. I love you guys :)

Until next time~!
XOXO